Alone

我渴望將來能見你一面，但請你記得，我不會開口要求見你。

這不是因為驕傲，你知道我在你面前毫無驕傲可言，
而是因為，唯有你也想見我的時候，我們見面才有意義。

~ Simone de Beauvoir, 1950

GROSS

How much longer would I have to live with these sick habbits?

Surfing on the net to find the connection we may have, when can I wake up from the irrealistic fantacies?

You were fool enough to have thought that he likes you, you know what was in his mind, everything but honesty. You still hope he might learn sooner or later you are the special one.

You gotta give up!! You have no chance to do thing wrong any more, hold tight onto what you have now. You can't keep looking back and stepping forward.

Secure

I'm lucky to have many men to love me(not that many...), but there's only one place for the only one.

Some would say it means nothing until you get married.

It never hurts to try. But I did hurt so badly for the trial.

I'm not close-minded, I just need to feel secure.

Are love all about feelings? Not after one grow up.

Envy

I like to see beautiful girls, on the road or on the net.

Sometimes I appreciate their looks, cute or sexy, they just know how to express their confidence. While sometimes I can't help but envy what they have.

I wonder how much would it take to become one of them.

Music kills

Maybe because I've never met the type of people like you, so I crushed on your talent of music. You gave me the thought that I might be special to you, it turned out to be my illusion.

Everybody wants to be special to somebody, apparently I'm not the one for you , and (I persuade myself that ) you don't deserve me. While I can't help being curious about whether you would treat me as well as he does if we decided to date. I'd better not knowing the answer, since it doesn't matter at all.

I liked your song, but you really need to compose something new. You should know that's why most girls crazy about you.

What the heck

I don't want to care about other people's opinion of my relationship. While I can't help to feel weird when I see my ex's good friend, also my housemate. It doesn't matter he like me or not, we don't have too many contacts anyway.

But it depressed me because he judge me by one's opinion, I don't care, I just don't get used to that. I always try to be Miss Nice, I try hard to make good impression on everyone. however, when it comes to relationship, I usually screw up.

I'm especially bad at handling relations with foreigners. I always thought I can be friend of them, most of time turn out to be more complicate than I expect. Why can't we just be friend? Did I do something inadequate to lead all the misunderstood?

Fortunately I have someone to be my side, watch me very carefully and strictly, haha.

Lazy

Don't wanna clean the room.

Don't wanna write the reports.

Don't wanna shop anywhere.

Don't wanna makeup covering my face.

I feel something disappeared in my head.

Lie down in the bed, be a fat potato~

Out of order.